I'm come to realize that I have been self-sabotaging my life for years now. I've been a person who dreams big and never feels satisfaction in the victories. And I've struggled with understanding why that is. And after coming out of this last season of depression I think I've finally realized what it is. I've … Continue reading It’s Not About “Happiness”
*Current song to listen to while you read this... Toby Mac - 21 Years* Today marks 3 months since you left us. While I know you are in a much better place and are no longer in so much pain it doesn’t make it any easier. Especially around this time of year. I was supposed … Continue reading I Failed You
It's a sad realization that while we often remember many of our "firsts" in life we tend to not even realize that our "lasts" have come and gone. We take life for granted and assume that we are promised a tomorrow. Sometimes tomorrow simply doesn't arrive. Sometimes it's in the literal sense and your physical … Continue reading Just A Bit Longer
Life is settling in so I will have time to update this moving forward. To be continued by the end of this weekend...
I have come to realize that writing is the one place where I can quickly process my thoughts and get an answer to what's going on in my head. Sometimes I just need to sit down, get it all out there and then go back through and address what comes up. I have depression. Which … Continue reading It’s Okay To Not Be Okay… Until It’s No Longer Okay
I’m so tired of feeling the way I do. I’m remembering why I started putting up so many walls to begin with. I know how fragile of a person I am and I was trying to protect myself. All I want to do is throw my hands in their air and reevaluate. I’m just so … Continue reading Exhausted
I’m going to be honest outright and admit that this subject is one I struggle with. I have such a desire to love others, but I still have moments where my heart loses out to my mind. But what is love? Sorry not sorry if that song gets stuck in your head. Love can mean … Continue reading Why Do We Struggle With Love?
This post is long overdue. There’s going to be a lot of happiness that you will read, but I’m also going to address some bad moments as well. I don’t like putting on a mask and only showing the “good” side of life. A lot of growth comes from the struggles. So I hereby, finally, … Continue reading For The One Who Never Let Me Go
Today will be a short post, but one that I need to document so I have it to come back to when/if these feelings return. I recently had some much needed conversations with a few pretty great people in my life. And in opening up about things that I didn’t know I was still keeping … Continue reading Self Realization And Fighting Back
I’ve got to be honest with you... after I shared my first post in this series last week I immediately had doubts. Fear of judgement overcame me pretty quickly. Why share these parts of my past that no longer reflect who I am? This is part of my healing process. This is me learning to … Continue reading Addressing The Past To Cleanse My Heart And Bring Myself Closer To Jesus (Part Two)