I'm come to realize that I have been self-sabotaging my life for years now. I've been a person who dreams big and never feels satisfaction in the victories. And I've struggled with understanding why that is. And after coming out of this last season of depression I think I've finally realized what it is. I've … Continue reading It’s Not About “Happiness”
To say the last month has been rough would be a major understatement. I've been struggling with another massive period of depression, and what has scared me the most about it this time is that I have been on antidepressants for 6 months now which are supposed to help. So there must be some pretty … Continue reading 2021 – The Year of Healing
*Current song to listen to while you read this... Toby Mac - 21 Years* Today marks 3 months since you left us. While I know you are in a much better place and are no longer in so much pain it doesn’t make it any easier. Especially around this time of year. I was supposed … Continue reading I Failed You
I should be praying tonight instead of writing... It’s remarkable how quickly you can be reminded of how fragile your existence is. Or how suddenly you can be halted in your thoughts on your place in this world and your importance in other people’s lives. Have you ever watched a planned building demolition? It’s absolutely … Continue reading The Fragility Of The World
I’m going to be honest outright and admit that this subject is one I struggle with. I have such a desire to love others, but I still have moments where my heart loses out to my mind. But what is love? Sorry not sorry if that song gets stuck in your head. Love can mean … Continue reading Why Do We Struggle With Love?
I’ve got to be honest with you... after I shared my first post in this series last week I immediately had doubts. Fear of judgement overcame me pretty quickly. Why share these parts of my past that no longer reflect who I am? This is part of my healing process. This is me learning to … Continue reading Addressing The Past To Cleanse My Heart And Bring Myself Closer To Jesus (Part Two)
On this path I am on to be a surrendered follower of Jesus I am learning to love unconditionally. Not only others, but also myself. How am I to seek forgiveness without addressing my sins and failures? I can’t just drop to my knees and yell out “Please forgive me for everything I have done!”. … Continue reading Addressing The Past To Cleanse My Heart And Bring Myself Closer To Jesus (Part One)
Today is officially my birthday and for the first time in a very long time it will be a joyous day. March 4th can no longer be a sad day, even if the world is falling apart around me because I now get to share this day with an incredibly special person! So, happy birthday … Continue reading Happy Birthday! Now Go Out And Do Good!
When I created this blog over 4 years ago I was in a place in my life where the only thing I wanted was solitude for my immediate family of 5. This blog was created to be about OUR little infinity. I had shut the rest of the world out and was focused on my … Continue reading What’s In A Name? A Reminder of Where I Came From And Where I Want To Go