It’s Not About “Happiness”

I'm come to realize that I have been self-sabotaging my life for years now. I've been a person who dreams big and never feels satisfaction in the victories. And I've struggled with understanding why that is. And after coming out of this last season of depression I think I've finally realized what it is. I've … Continue reading It’s Not About “Happiness”

2021 – The Year of Healing

To say the last month has been rough would be a major understatement. I've been struggling with another massive period of depression, and what has scared me the most about it this time is that I have been on antidepressants for 6 months now which are supposed to help. So there must be some pretty … Continue reading 2021 – The Year of Healing

Expectations vs. Reality – Taking Responsibility For My Own Pain

Until I can get into therapy I need this to be my safe place . I've lost too many of those and I need something that I can go back to and know will still be there. My own words aren't going anywhere. My own words can be extremely damaging, but they remain as long … Continue reading Expectations vs. Reality – Taking Responsibility For My Own Pain

I Failed You

*Current song to listen to while you read this... Toby Mac - 21 Years* Today marks 3 months since you left us. While I know you are in a much better place and are no longer in so much pain it doesn’t make it any easier. Especially around this time of year. I was supposed … Continue reading I Failed You

Just Listen (Part 2)

I am a broken person. I know this, and it is something that I don’t shy away from admitting. The problem, however, is taking that conversation any further than an oversimplified statement to avoid talking about my feelings. I struggle with vocalizing my thoughts into words, so instead I decided to write them out. This … Continue reading Just Listen (Part 2)